A New Year Revolution

“I hear so many Christians, murmmuring about their imperfections, and their failures, and their addictions, and their shortcomings.  And I see so little war!  Murmur, murmur, murmur.  Why am I this way?  Make War!”
– John Piper

So I didn’t want to make a “Resolution” because let’s be honest, they are cliché and are hardly kept.  So instead, I propose a New Year Revolution, a revolution by definition, is a fundamental change.  And that’s what I want to do.  I want to make war against lust, against pride, against me.  I want it to be so obvious that I am a Christian and after Gods own heart.  I don’t want people to think to themselves, “Well, he says he’s a christian so I guess I’ll take his word for it.”  I hope that hasn’t happened, but I don’t want it to ever happened.  I don’t want to be the type of guy that trades God for a night with a girl, I don’t want to be the type of guy who is surrounded by people who love him but refuses to change for the better.  I haven’t been that guy, but I know Satan wants me to be, but I refuse to be that weak.

I know we are sinners, but since Jesus rose he’s renewing the image of God in us!  We have got to start making war, now we can say no to those fleshy impluses that Christ paid for.  And if you’re not saying no, why is that?  Is it fear of not conforming to the world?  Perfect love casts out fear.

I want to start going all out for Christ, I can’t wait for Revolution to start that out reach to Prostitutes on saturday nights, I really want to help with that.  I’m very excited to start taking this biblical counseling course, I am sure that will help me greatly.  I guess overall, I just want to be part of the solution, not part of the problem.

It’s Been a Year Filled with Problems….

But now you’re here
Almost as if to solve them

So I guess this is when I post the token “Year in Review” blog post discussing everything that has happened this year.  Let’s see, what hasn’t happened this year!  Back in January, I started at Shawnee State, a decision that would truly change my life.  February was when I really became friends with Dylan and Katie, good times.  We still need to go to Biscuit World!  March and April is when I really started getting close with my best friend Brittany Nidy, one of my favorite memories is staying up talking til 5am in Katie’s living room.  May is when I finished my first semester of college and when I moved in with the guys.  June marked the beginning of a two month spiritual journey like no other.  I started working at Scioto Hills in June, I was so nervous near the beginning.  It seemed like almost everyone knew eachother and knew so much more about the bible then I did, but as the summer passed I became comfortable.  Absolutely the best summer of my life, met some lifelong friends along the way.  A bunch of quotes, inside jokes, a few future groomsman, and a much deeper relationship with God later, the summer was over and it was time to get back to “reality”.

In August school started back up, same old routine.  I spent much of September and October overthinking every little detail that happened, boy was I a mess!  November in retrospect was a pretty good month, went on my first date with a very awesome girl.  It didn’t work out, but we are good friends now.  I also lost a very close friend in November, and Im still not sure how that happened.  December has been a toss-up so far.  I can’t seem to escape the Portsmouth drama even when I go home.  But I do get to hangout with my awesome Cedarville/Columbus friends Matt, Katelynn, and Mocha.  I ended the semester quite well, with the highest GPA I have ever gotten in school, a 3.09!  Christmas is a weird time, it’s suppose to be about love and such, but my family almost always fights more this time of year over the most ridiculous things.  I would like to end this post in a very thanksgiving type fashion, by giving thanks for some things I am very greateful for this year.

• Lecrae
• The Office
• Jennifer Reynolds (Seriously, I don’t know what I would have done without you! haha)
• Brittany Nidy (My best friend)
• Katelynn Comers
• Bigelow Church
• Andrea Lavender
• Grace (Duh!  Where would I be without grace?!)

Please don’t take offense if I did not list you, I couldn’t possibly list EVERYTHING I am thankful for this year.

I Want to Do it All!!!

I have so many goals in life it is ridiculous!  I doubt I can ever accomplish them all, since it inclues like 5 career choices haha!

• I want to graduate from College
• I want do tons of research on Social Darwinism
• I want to get a masters in criminology
• I want to be a certififed biblical counselor
• I want to get married the woman of my dreams
• I want to raise kids in a Godly way
• I want to help abused and neglected animals
• I want to counsel abused, neglected, and hurt kids
• I want to visit Salvation Mountain
• I don’t want to worry
• I want to be able to provide for my family
• I want to have such a close relationship with someone we can just exchange looks and know what we are thinking
• I don’t ever want to complain about my job
• I never want to have a petty argument with my wife over nothing
• I want to always have those butterflies when I look at my wife
• I want to make someone elses dream come true
• I want to sleep on a beach
• I want to go to Jareds
• I never want to be comfortable in life
• I want to have a 24-hour meaningful conversation
• I want to travel via train somewhere

It’s 3am I must be lonely…

I’ve been here before a few times
And I’m quite aware we’re dying

I know the right decision to make, and as painful as it is to make it, I know I have to.  I know what God wants me to do, and that’s what I should do.  Not what I want to do, not what brings me the most glory, but what brings God the most glory and I know what that is.  And if in the end it turns out the way I want, then awesome, I’ll know that it’s also what God wanted.  And if it doesn’t, I need to be okay with that too.  God is so great and I know everything works for the better of those who trust him, I just need to trust him.  It kills me to know what I want right now is not what God wants, usually I have trouble distinguishing between the two until afterwards and I’m just like “Oh well that was obvious.”  And now God has graced me with being able to know what he wants beforehand, and it might be even more difficult to realize that now then later, if that makes any sense.  I’ll just keep praying about it.

You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness
I’m here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying

Truth be told this ain’t my style

If their was a yelling in frusteration smiley face, I would definately fill this whole post up with that!  This past week has been crazy, so much stupid drama and headaches.  It’s like some people never leave High School.  Then their is the stuff going on here in Columbus that is pretty frustrating as well.  I just don’t know what to do.  It’s pretty much a completely different feeling, in a good way though.  Ugh, I just don’t know!

I’d rather have the truth than something insincere.

As a college student who hangs out with college students, there is something you just can’t escape.  Relationships and drama.  It’s being in Super High School or something, its ridiculous.  But it’s always the same, when people are not in a relationship they are always like “I don’t need a boyfriend/girlfriend.  All I need is God!”  Then in a few months when they get into a relationship, it’s like they forget all that and their one thing because their boyfriend/girlfriend.  It’s plain stupid.  I totallygain so much  respect for the few people I know who do not put their relationships ahead of God.  And the girls that I know that refuse to put boys in front of God or so much more attractive because of it.  I can’t speak for every christian guy, or even most, but I know the girl I end up dating and marrying isn’t going to put me ahead of God.

The semester is finally over, and boy did it take long enough!  I’m pretty sure if the semester would have been any longer I would have died!  haha.    I enjoyed my classes this semester for the most part, which is a pleasent change of pace.  I’m nervous for next semester though, I’m taking a lot more credits then im use to and a lot of them are pretty difficult courses.  So hopefully I can really buckle down and get it done and over with.  I make fun of sociology quite a bit, but I really do enjoy it as  a major, I feel like it fits me pretty perfectly lol.  I really need to find a job, like if I don’t find a job within a month of starting school back in jan. I don’t think I will be able to afford to live in portsmouth anymore.  So please if you know of anyone or anyplace hiring, let me know.  I don’t have a car so delivery boy is out lol.