I’ve been here before a few times
And I’m quite aware we’re dying
I know the right decision to make, and as painful as it is to make it, I know I have to. I know what God wants me to do, and that’s what I should do. Not what I want to do, not what brings me the most glory, but what brings God the most glory and I know what that is. And if in the end it turns out the way I want, then awesome, I’ll know that it’s also what God wanted. And if it doesn’t, I need to be okay with that too. God is so great and I know everything works for the better of those who trust him, I just need to trust him. It kills me to know what I want right now is not what God wants, usually I have trouble distinguishing between the two until afterwards and I’m just like “Oh well that was obvious.” And now God has graced me with being able to know what he wants beforehand, and it might be even more difficult to realize that now then later, if that makes any sense. I’ll just keep praying about it.
You are such a blessing and I wont be messing
with the one thing that brings light to all my darkness
I’m here right beside you
I will never leave you
and I feel the pain you feel when you start crying