I think I might be a monster, because I have no idea what else I could possibly become. I’ve lived by entire childhood trying to fit into a “man” ‘s molding. Now I’m 20 years old and where am I? I look at the media, and what does it say, am I man? Nope, I am not a man according to the media. I don’t drink, I don’t have sex, I don’t do things that are wreckless and irresponsible. I care incredibly too much to be the media’s man. So where do I look next? Society. Do I fit society’s mold of being a man? Again no. I don’t have a career, I don’t have a piece of land, or a five year plan. How can I be a man without those things, well I can’t according to society.
So where should I look, well the bible of course. That was easy wasn’t it? Well not so fast. What does the bible say about being a man, well it tells us that a man does not walk in the council of the wicked, and it tells us how to be a good husband and a good father. But does it straight up tell us how to be a man? Maybe it does but I have trouble interpreting it myself, so I go to the people I trust and what do I hear? I hear that men can’t have emotions, men can’t watch certain types of movies, men can’t wear certain types of clothing. Men have to be able to kill something with a gun. Men can’t have feelings, and heaven forbid if a man should have hurt feelings… we are just suppose to suck it up and “be a man”. But what is a man. Why can’t a man just be who he is?
In the face of adversity, men have a word for standing their ground and being a solider. Ironically, we call it “heart”. But love will get you killed, so I put mine in the dark.
Ain’t that some sort of beautiful monster?